Falling Apart

Help! I’m Getting Old and Falling Apart

Have you ever looked down at your hands and thought, those can’t be my hands. Those hands are too old to be my hands.

(My grandmother’s hand)

It’s starting to happen to me.

If someone asks you how old you FEEL, what do you say? In my mind I am about 28-32. Still young, but with some life experience to go with it.

Although I won’t be 40 until next year, I still feel like I’m getting old and am starting to fall apart.

A few months ago I went to the eye doctor for a regular checkup. I was a bit fearful. I can’t read things as well unless I am in good light. I am also squinting.

Do I need glasses? I asked fearfully.
Not yet, he said. Phew.
“Your eyes are just getting older.”

Great.

This is not the only example. When I am singing in a multi-aged choir, I now realize that my voice sounds older. I can’t blend in with the early 20 university students any more. I have a “mature” voice.

Let’s not even talk about the body.
I can’t lose weight as easily.
I have Achilles tendinitis now from trying to run.